poetry-doggeral-et-al's name

times
unseen but felt
barriers
i cannot pass
dont belong there
have no place
resented even
and so retreat
always and ever on
there will be places
i dont belong
not welcome
 never fit
not wanted
im used to it
places with
no place
for me
faces
whose face
of mine
cant see
unseen doors that welcome most
swing shut and lock
with my approach
the bolt slides home
seals it tight
i remain on the outside
and out of sight
some they know
and feel relief
others say enter
with disbelief
for most
unnoticed
 unaware
for most a shadow
if onlys
 and nowhere
a shade of darkness
a piece of  night
on the outside
and out of sight
squares of yellow
warm windowlight sentries
on watch for unwelcome
unwanted  entries
look right through me
unconcerned
content and knowing
my lesson's learned
i stay outside
cloaked by night
on the outside
and out of sight
know my place
where darkness
meets light
land of shadows
fading light
on the outside
and out of sight
on the outside
and
out of sight

Snow n snowing
swirling blowing
insulated with the knowing
outside cold
inside warm
surrounded by
the icy storm
bent head to wind
leaning forward
trudge thru drifts
half blind but onward
experience .. instinct
suggest the course
scream to the wind
voice goes hoarse
part by sight
part by feel
define what is shadow
and what is
real
then
the faintest tracks
of a friend long past
bits of color
mark the path
tied tatters of words
phrases of cloth
mark the way
 light for a moth
follow the words
feel the tone
heed the message
 and
find
the way
home

once again i find
i slide
into the cracks
left behind
in the moment forgotten
for the moment I d share
another time
another place
other times
other faces
just a slip
slip of the tongue
slip your mind
slip beneath
through cracks in time
slide
out of sight
just a slight
nothin personal
just a slight .....slide
almost reached you
almost not quite
almost could touch you
then a
slide
the brush of air
you thought you felt
the shiver
the something
unseen
just felt
was nothing but me
slipping in time
slipping from somewhere
slipping your mind
slipping
and sliding
sliding behind
into the cracks
another time
out of sight
just a slight
nothin personal
just a slight....slide
off to the wayside beside
my  seaside
cliffs
cliffside
seaside
by the wayside
...............slide

night sky
stretches wide
above me
vast
close so close
but far
touch me
nightsky
touched me
 whisper kiss
winking star
underneath the nightsky
is when i ll dare to dream
where shadows merge
shadows welcomed
barely show a seam
wrapped inside the nightsky
on a bed of winking stars
tucked in
blanketed by moonlight
up underneath my chin
soft night breezes
sing to me
a lullaby for sleep
sing to me
sing to me
hush now
sleep
rocking gently
held by nightsky
feeling safe
feeling loved
wrap me up nightsky
and tuck me in above
on a bed of twinkling stars
tucked in nice n tight
safe and warm
warm and  safe
neath my blanket of moon's light
whisper kiss nightsky
just a whisper of a kiss
barely touch my cheek
nightsky voice of gentle breezes
carry me to sleep
 sing to me
sing to me
hush now
sleep
voice of gentle breezes
hush now
carry me asleep

how bad
how bad it must have been
how much pain
how much pain you must have been in
how dark
how deep
the secret keep
forever sleep
no one wants to die alone
you called and called
no one home
 in the end
you died alone
what says that for us
we loved you
i loved you
but didnt answer the phone
and in the end
you died alone
 and how many days
did you sway
up to five
not alive
shadows deepen
sun rise
 sun fall
swinging silhouette
on dirty wall
till finally a stranger came
a man who didnt know your name
not that then he d recognize
any of you in lifeless eyes
eyes once blue
bulge and strain
a twisted neck
that feels no pain
discolored
disfigured
bloodprint
ligature
persistent ring
persistent phone
in the end
you died alone